People.

The people that come and go in your life. The people that you love. The people that you hate. Both being strong emotions. Both emotions, capable of feeling for the same person at the same time, while speaking to them. We have fond feelings twards people and harsh feelings at the same time, an interesting internal conflict. If you really think about it. Some of these feelings are based on decisions. Decisions we make in our own minds, that dictate to us how we choose to feel about someone. Then again, there are the actions, and decisions of people that dictate what we feel and think of them. Sometimes we go against those feelings, that we formed, based on their actions. Rarely do does going against these instincts, pay off. Most of the time, we get burned, and hurt. Hurt in itself is a lesson, of the things we need to avoid, and the things we dont need in our lives. Never second guess yourself, you will only loose in the end, what you loose depends on your perspective, and how you think. There is no rght or wrong thinking, only what gets you through.

Random Thinking.

Interesting, I think, the places that our minds take us. The people places and things we remember, for what seems no apparent reason. The vivid and faded memories of the past and the people and places in them. The tattered and torn, then new and shiney. The things done, to us, and, us to them. The things we take pride in, and those we are not proud of. The question is this, what do these things mean? How or why, do they matter to who we are, or who we think we are? Do they make us important to anyone but ourselves, do thayt make us important to others, and if they do why, or how. There memories of things past, some painful, some pleasurable. In different situations, the things we think of, that seem to be significant, in time matter very little, even to us. Just interesting. I think.

Crossroads.

Ah, what to say, I find myself at a a month and a half from 40 years old, and I dont know what I want to do when I grow up. I have had people put into my live, that I may have (possibly) ignored or passed over the knowledge they had to offer, and I find myself looking back on some of this wisdom and where it has lead me in life. I enjoy what I do, just not where I do it anymore, I enjoy who I am, just not where I am. I may have ignored things in my life, that are possibly to late to get back, and I wonder the consequence of that. Yeah I have the happy and positive, or thought provoking little posts on my Facebook, but what is Facebook, other then an invitation into your life, that you normaly would not offer to others. I have made mistakes, and have had success, yet I wonder, what if I had done this or that. What if I had listened to this or that, at the time, rather then now, when it sort of seems to late. I know it is never to late to change your life, and make a difference to you, and who you are, but, I wonder, "What If"?. Interesting I think, we shall see.